As/Is







3.18.2026


Adam Fieled (Logan Square, Philadelphia, USA): "Mary Evelyn Harju on Saint Catherine Street"


                                                                                                                                                             © Adam Fieled 2003-2026








3.17.2026


Adam Fieled, Anonymous: "Mary Evelyn Harju at 4325 Baltimore Avenue II"


                                                                                                                                               © Anonymous, Adam Fieled 2001-2026








3.11.2026


Adam Fieled, Anonymous: "Mary Evelyn Harju at 4325 Baltimore Avenue, West Philadelphia, 2001"


                                                                                                                                        © Anonymous, Adam Fieled 2001-2024








2.18.2026


Something Solid: Aughts Philly: Star Child in Scud


 Star Child, another razzmatazz from The Spurgin Chronicles in SS, in Scud









2.03.2026


A template typhoon...


 ...hit The Seattle Star the right way. Check out The Ballad of Robert Johnson









1.23.2026


The Wilderness Sequence (2026)


I. Nights I Staggered Drunkenly

Nights I staggered drunkenly, down the winding,
white-walled corridor which led to two major Highwire
entrances (the ware-house space & the gallery itself);
how it was that our version of freedom (Free School),
stitched to good old-fashioned luck, had been allowed
to recreate cultural Philadelphia from its insides out, I
could never figure out. The set-up, me calling the shots,
added a patina of raw power to my persona which had
never been there before. I looked loose, worldly. I was,
unwittingly, being scoped out by eyes raised on the rigors
of politics, blended with also-raw eroticism, raw determination.
In the sense of a quintessence of material action, the world.
With that quintessential world, the possibility of quick,
painful obsolescence— alongside the drunken rapture.

II. Beleaguered In Lasting

Two bottles of half-finished whiskey gaped on
the island space, mid-gallery; green odors emanated from
corners. The crowd, teens & twenties, ribald,
projected an O-mind, as though a Pandora’s Box
had opened, allowing them to float in a stark bardo
where salvation was granted to those gutsy enough
to ride the rollicking waves. We had turned the right
keys to let these people free, taught them the rigors
of real freedom. My satori, then, was about responsibility.
Knowledge had to be passed what we’d accomplished
here, in Philadelphia. Only I could give form to all
the shapeless exuberance. Prizes yet to be granted
to me strutted around, bathing in the warmth of our masses.
Another satori, more responsibilities. Beleaguered in lasting.

III. Crowned

The routine social maintenance of our domain—
another drunken night at McGlinchey’s, eyes & ears
to the ground as usual, broken then only by your
arrival. It must’ve been Nick who met you first,
I don’t remember, but I saw you were fixated on
him. Hannah: novelist, politico, of course, but looks which
teetered ambiguously into divisiveness for those
who knew you— heavy brows, wavy hair, tall, a bit
tomboyish, also, but articulate, a charmer, & yet I
registered the sense that if I ever got you, it would
be something gratuitous, a surprise, because closed
seemed to be the fortress, & choosing Nick seemed
to betray a masochistic streak. That night, his front
swelled visibly with your arrival— I stepped back.

You were, must’ve been, I later realized, underwater
somehow, surveying currents, examining the wildlife,
surreptitiously & invisibly carving a watery path to me.
I had only what the male of the species always has—
the equipment to complete your circuitry, potent or
impotent in any time or context, waiting latent to
take our moment, make it crescendo through the reef,
weed, rock, as though destined, written into ocean’s
records an eternity ago, when all life dwelt in the ocean,
all encounters occurred in resplendent semi-darkness.
And all this still sitting with the gang at the Glinch,
holding your own with a bunch of macho punks, who
were taking something in Philadelphia by force, me
selected silently, the tomboy an Ocean Queen, crowned—

IV. Undulant

I’d made plans to meet you in Bar Noir
on 18th; you were there; we drank. What
happened after that, in the Logan Square
flat, is that in defrocking you knocked over
an antique lamp bequeathed to me by my
aunt in Mahopac. Serendipity, I thought,
stunned then into silence by your bedroom
élan. Outside, a sultry night simmered; this
night of all nights, scattered green glass littered
my bedroom floor, & I finally got taken, past
liquor, to what eternity was only in your mouth—
as though you’d jumped from a forest scene
(ferns, redwoods), a world of pagan magic,
into a scene still undulant with possibilities—

V. Denouement

Was it even you anymore? You took the podium,
began your screed: here’s what Philadelphia could be.
The night proceeded from act to act— our enemies
were taken aback— I now boasted big-boy curating
entanglements. I knew that place— the wrong kind
of underwater, piranhas hungrily looking for what might
be real to rip to shreds, offal everywhere—
was not for me, just as (to be stern) you were not for me either.
All your politico postures were about barnstorming fortresses
set against you, ravishing them through pure force
majeure
. You were pure angel/demon, Hannah. I’d
have to retreat to the back of your consciousness—
an old conquest, not especially vaunted, burrowing down
into binds to find reality, missing unreality’s deliciousness—

© Adam Fieled 2017-2026








1.21.2026


Henniker Heat


Henniker, New Hampshire is located eighty miles outside of Boston. This Something Solid sequence recounts Henniker and its inhabitants, transient and otherwise, in the mid-Aughts. From the Miscellaneous Sonnets section of the book. 






Frequencies II (2017 draft)


TAPESTRY

Okra, stamens, roots, all that in nature
coalesces in straight, staunch, erect
growth; also, a shadow father bent,
then erect, then bent again, perverse
from amassing wealth in a world
whose submissiveness poisons him;
was all she saw in bed with me that night.
I was, it turns out, to be part of a tapestry;
where I’m woven in— off-center,
towards the right edge, beige, as she
chiseled a persona out of who
she was, pliant, planed beneath our
thrusts, caresses, & did homage
to the agony of submissive flesh.








1.20.2026


Frequencies I (2018 draft)

 


NARROW BED

New Hampshire, summer night: I
nailed her, pliant, tanned, teased out
beneath me as flies roughened the room,
pirouetted moist air, as we rose
over convention to do just what we
wanted: make myth become flesh.
She stood, sans me knowing, on
prosody, a series of poems she wrote
swirling around how she might deal
with contracts, extinction. The poems,
I’d guess, were running through her
head as we made love on the narrow
bed. The sun rose at 4 am, roughed
us up again, but what was done: a final draft.








1.07.2026


Something Solid: Aughts Philly: Stoli in The Seattle Star


 Stoli, from the Aughts Philly section of Something Solid, in The Seattle Star. For Gaetan. 






Abby Heller-Burnham (Logan Square, Philadelphia, USA): "Adam Fieled & Mary Evelyn Harju"

                                                             
                                                                                                                                                    © Abby Heller-Burnham 2002








1.04.2026


Adam Fieled (Plymouth Meeting, Pennsylvania): "Frequencies"

for Mary Walker Graham
I.
“We’re at our most bestial when threatened not
with hatred but indifference; what our blood wants
is reaction of some kind.” New Hampshire night,
our own reaction, you pliant, penetrable, laid out beneath me as
flies fidgeted our room, pirouetted moist air. Yet
we sank beneath bestiality to do just what indifferently
we wanted, beneath our glut of blood, so the summoned
beasts might react with this: ripped limb from limb,
buried in low-lying Virginia swamp marsh, given what
aphorism is only got in extinction, darling, as I quote
what you said at the bar before. In other words, they
hated us. The one-night stand wouldn’t matter if your
brain didn’t have the right words in it: stories, sequences,
slammed-down metaphors of a singed self. Frequencies.

II.
As the world between her legs tightened around
her, what she saw in bed with me was stark: okra,
stamens, roots, all that in nature coalesces in erect
growth; and a shadow father bent, then erect, then
bent again, perverse from amassing wealth in a world
whose submissiveness poisons him. Beneath the sultry,
wooded surface, what I saw was a semi-frightened
animal, along for an all-night ride (gruesomeness of
4 a.m. New Hampshire sun), knife thusly thrusting
into the backs of everyone around her, managing
to have stamina enough against constraint to take
what she was taking. The mattress thumped: above,
an angel was unable to conceal laughter, understanding
it was all in the script, including the garish sun’s leer.

© Adam Fieled 2018-2025

Frequencies II was originally published as Hit or Miss in Otoliths 50 in 2018. 








12.19.2025


Equations: Antithesis on Buffalo 8


 From the antithesis section of Equations on Buffalo 8









12.13.2025


Ephemera


 An essay which starts with Yeats, Becky Hilliker, and autumn









11.11.2025


Adam Fieled (Logan Square, Philadelphia, USA): "Run Away With Me"

for Dani Diendorf

I was thinking as I listened to her
    about Byron’s relentless nihilism,
that only found out in intoxication
    any kind of remedy for the things
she was telling me about abortions,
    forced entries, deaths, and how no I won’t go
home with you
, and how Byron
    alone among the Romantics dealt
overtly with sex, not just love like
   Shelley or fantasy like Keats or Nature

like Wordsworth the dull sheep,
   and all the blokes in the bar were
staring at her— green eyes, red hair,
   bust, you know the kind that blokes
will stare at, and I thought Byron
   really caught something a seed,
a kernel of what Nietzsche ran away
   with (recurrence!), so I said please run
away with me
and she laughed, looked down
    into her beer and was finished—

© Adam Fieled 2009-2025

Run Away With Me was originally published as Sex and Nihilism in Otoliths 13 in 2009. 








11.03.2025


Javelin Frequencies


 Newly recorded: Frequencies, Javelins, and Genius Loci. 









10.22.2025


And a note about post-avant


Following on the heels of attempted, definitive (for now) renderings of Neo-Romanticism, the Creatrix, and the Philly Free School, it stands to reason that something should be said about post-avant, a term which floated around extensively in avant-garde circles in the Aughts. When poets and pundits in the Aughts employed the term post-avant, they generally seemed to mean anything au currant which took things further, formally or conceptually, than previous generations of avant-gardists. Post-avant was thus a catch-all phrase, and vague. As of 2009 and 2010, I tried to pin it down, as is documented in Stress Fractures. This paragraph, from Stoning the Devil, does what I hoped would be a definitive rendering trick:

Many definitions have been posited for post-avant. There was a flurry of action about five months ago, in which I and a handful of other poets had it out over what post-avant means and what it does not. It was my impression that no general consensus was reached, and that much had been said but little of it had a substantial impact. This goes, certainly, for the things I said too; I do not privilege my own formulations here. Nonetheless, I think the discussion is a worthwhile one, and thinking about it has led me to some new conclusions. Here is the original definition I posited for post-avant: the diasporic movement of Language Poetry towards a new synthesis with erotic and narrative elements. That's roughly it. What I have been thinking over the last week is slightly different, and simpler. It is defining post-avant poetry as anything with an edge. This begs some immediate questions. What do we mean when we say that a poem, or a book of poems, has an edge? How do we strictly define edgy poetry? Colloquially, if it is said that something has an edge, it usually denotes that it is pointed, direct, sharp, and that it skirts the uncomfortable or the unsettling. It may deal, thematically, with a difficult issue, or it may take an unusual stance on an issue that has become stuck in a rut of settled representations....

The connection of post-avant to Language Poetry does a genie-from-the-bottle trick of manifesting exactly what the Aughts were like in avant-America. Lang-Po, as we referred to it, still loomed as a formidable presence, under the aegis of post-modernism, and an elders-created gauntlet which had been laid down. Post-avant thus became our attempt to take Lang-Po and make it more felt, more real. As terms, both Lang-Po and post-avant hover around uncertainly in 2025. But just as something, possibly ephemeral, that colored all of our lives twenty years ago, a note of notice is not uncalled for.